Excerpt from my journal - Mid 2023

What I think when life could’ve been better.

Mosaic

They say:
They say you’re a mosaic of everyone you’ve loved.
Well then, I’m a thousand piece puzzle;
One whose corners can’t be found.

I’ve loved a thousand people
family, friends - their voices far & feeble
friends turned lovers, lovers turned strangers
Expectations paving my downfall.

But they have a part of me in them too
So I shall love a thousand more.

Untitled

I can hide behind music and solo dates
I may plan trips to Japan and Peru
I might even love being with myself

But when all is said and done,
I have nothing but an empty house to come back to.
Its walls echoing the void
within itself and me.